Pretty Faith

How incredibly insignificant I feel in my life at moments
I plead to the God of my grandmother, Please hear me!
I plead to the God of my youth, Please hold me like you did!
God of my marriage, Where have I lost myself?
When will I feel your touch………?
What is it that I feel now? The ache that is turning over and over throughout my whole mind and heart.
We attach ourselves to a Holy Place and place a sign upon the Door, "No Intruders."
So I sit here now full and empty at the same time.
God of my existence, when is it when you will be the God of my lips again?
When will you make me believe? Whether I have been in your place all along, or I choose to turn and wind, I don’t want to be without the proof of your fingers around my wrist.
God don’t you see that I feel that I am fading and every memory is slipping past me so fast that it turns into a dream. Why can’t my words be enough, I thought they were your words, why can’t my words break power around us, aren’t we made up of words, anyway?
So, sitting here dying to understand why I am living, why am I trying so hard to feel. Broken dreams taunt me at every corner, and compliancy tries to appease my ache. I cannot live without my faith; my faith is the only thing that has blessed me. I can’t live without my strength, please heal my strength in this dying, cruel, and ungodly world. This can’t be, No it cannot be what you have intended for me…………………………………………………………………………………Or, is it exactly what you have intended Oh God of my future
Keep on singing Solomon

God is doing a work in me
He's walking through my rooms and halls
Checking every corner
Tearing down the unsafe walls
And letting in the light
I am working hardTo clean my house and set it straight
To not let pride get in the way
To catch an eternal vision ofWhat I am to become
Will you help me be new
Will you hold me to the promises
That I have made
Will you let me be new
Forgive my old self and my old mistakes
It seems easier
Living out my life in Christ
For those who do not know me
To hide the thorns stuck in my side
And all my secret faults
But you know me well
And it's you I want the most to see
And recognize the changes
A word from you empowers me
To press on for my goal
When I feel condemned to live my old life
Remind me I've been given a new life in Christ

The Family Of Christ in God

The Harpers and Hughes
We have come a long way with these guys. It was so nice and encouraging to be with them and feel the spirit throughout their lives. It has been a bit hard without friends that really know you and want to help you through anything. I am so glad that we went and the boys played so well. Both sets. I love you guys and I pray all goes well with you this semester.

TO DALLAS AND BEYOND!!

WEll I just want to announce that we are finally going to see our bestest friends that live in Dallas. Our hearts need to be refreshed by fellowship, prayer and plan fun! I can't wait to hug my kelli and kiss my boys. My heart is jumping for joy and the thought of being in the Harpers presense, even if it is only for a while. I love you guys and miss you sosososososo much.